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 Been living here on Euclid since July 12th, 1992. 

That Sunday, a judge wedded my late husband Bob Blauner and me under the magnificent live oaks in the backyard. Only two witnesses attending, Russ and Julie, who – inspired by us – got married a few months later. Barefoot and wearing a simple 50’s red prom dress purchased for five dollars in a second hand shop in the Mission where I used to live, I felt a huge overwhelm of love, joy and gratitude that day. 

One of the by now faded wedding photos (by Russ Ellis), still on living room wall for all that time...

Despite being in my late thirties, I was very new to all of this, a commitment like marriage, a house, a garden. Twenty nine years have passed – how different it all looks and feels now, the backyard, the trees, the climate, me… As a steward of the land, I have become deeply intertwined with it. What a huge privilege and responsibility. On this day, and many other days, I marvel with utter gratitude how it has nourished, carried and shaped me, and reverse. I call it Karinaland.

Putting on that red summer dress today, it still fits... more snuggly :)  Bob’s spirit very present, I smile….

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  1. Sam SJuly 12, 2021 at 4:13 PM

    Karina,
    I was touched and impressed when I saw the BLM project at your house. What a wonderful idea to create this blog! The photos are amazing, and the quality of your writing is incredible. You are so much more than a film maker! Thank you for doing this, and keep writing!
    Sam Solomon

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  2. KarinaJuly 12, 2021 at 8:14 PM

    And please feel free to share the link with others who have not seen it, because i think the stills are as you say beautiful, evocative and give a feel...

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